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I am sorry about my last email, I was having a really tough few days and think that it showed, your keep it simple suggestions were a well needed reminder, so thank you for that.
I have decided not to do the Survivors in London, something about it just didn't feel right, and I spoke to a few people about it and that confirmed my feelings. It also became clear that people just don't know where I am at and what is going on for me, hence comments of it being time to move on and get on with my life, and that was from the one person that I thought understood me the most, but clearly my isolation and detachment from those around me has been more complete than I thought, which is sad, and I need to work to change that. But I do feel grateful that I was able to come to AZ and be so honest about everything, probably saved my arse.
It's interesting that most people seem to think that doing Survivors is almost a cure, and that after that you should be 'better', maybe it is for some people I guess.
I definitely want to come and do one of the three day workshops with you and Dory, I don't know which one I should do though, Feelings Reduction or Inner Child, and I would appreciate your feedback on that. It is a shame that the next available workshops are so far away, but from what Hilary says they are well worth doing, and both her and Alma felt that a lot of their stuff was looked at. I do think that something between now and then would be good, but I seem to be ruling most things out, probably one to one therapy would be good, somewhere to take whats coming up, but I think that the accumulative cost of that would be prohibitory, plus the fact that I know most of them.
Anyway, I shall try and have faith that it will all work out as you say.
I hope that you are well,